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one of my two prayers answered.
hey its actually nice to know that this blog is pretty much not read anymore.
sometimes with the advent of facebook. it does seem that people are "doing" and "thinking" things so that they will be fbworthy. funny moments of the day when u just feel like "i must share this on fb". outings you have with friends when u just snap away and go crazy tagging. yes perhaps part of you wants to share this moment with your friends with all e crazy tagging and commenting. but maybe a part of you hopes to flaunt it as a semblance of whatever social life you have left?
ah dont misunderstand me. i love facebook. it can be so fun to read and stalk at times :)
but okay this is not the point.
the point is: since this blog is kind of forsaken. it shall be a good place for me to rant :)
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it's amazing how God forces you to face things you escape from.
if not for that fateful captain's ball game, id not have faced up to my back issue. i will still be living in denial and daily painkillers now. there wouldn't have been courage to get a nerve block. or even to see prof tomorrow to discuss the possibility of an operation. i wouldnt have realised until i became a HO, that the way i was handling my back issue was unsustainable. that i could not survive through a hectic night call and the next day post call.
pls God. let the op be something i can afford. and may it not jeopardise my grad trip.
if i can have these 2 wishes God. theres nth more that i want for my birthday this yr : )
sometimes with the advent of facebook. it does seem that people are "doing" and "thinking" things so that they will be fbworthy. funny moments of the day when u just feel like "i must share this on fb". outings you have with friends when u just snap away and go crazy tagging. yes perhaps part of you wants to share this moment with your friends with all e crazy tagging and commenting. but maybe a part of you hopes to flaunt it as a semblance of whatever social life you have left?
ah dont misunderstand me. i love facebook. it can be so fun to read and stalk at times :)
but okay this is not the point.
the point is: since this blog is kind of forsaken. it shall be a good place for me to rant :)
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it's amazing how God forces you to face things you escape from.
if not for that fateful captain's ball game, id not have faced up to my back issue. i will still be living in denial and daily painkillers now. there wouldn't have been courage to get a nerve block. or even to see prof tomorrow to discuss the possibility of an operation. i wouldnt have realised until i became a HO, that the way i was handling my back issue was unsustainable. that i could not survive through a hectic night call and the next day post call.
pls God. let the op be something i can afford. and may it not jeopardise my grad trip.
if i can have these 2 wishes God. theres nth more that i want for my birthday this yr : )
it's been a long long time.
probably because i was having too much fun during electives, this blog kind of got neglected. and partly because the older me has taken a liking to my old diary. most of my reflections are there.
i am now a final year medical student.
sometimes, running around the wards and practising short cases- everything still feels surreal. i remember seeing m5 students moving around like a gang when i was doing csfc. was totally amazed at how at ease they were with asking patients for permission, and how fast they could just run thru their examination steps.
and as i was doing the residency apps and typing in all my clinical postings- it shocked me that we have alr been through so many rotations.
but praise God, despite the looming MBBS and residency apps, yr 5 has still been a pretty good yr!
probably because i was having too much fun during electives, this blog kind of got neglected. and partly because the older me has taken a liking to my old diary. most of my reflections are there.
i am now a final year medical student.
sometimes, running around the wards and practising short cases- everything still feels surreal. i remember seeing m5 students moving around like a gang when i was doing csfc. was totally amazed at how at ease they were with asking patients for permission, and how fast they could just run thru their examination steps.
and as i was doing the residency apps and typing in all my clinical postings- it shocked me that we have alr been through so many rotations.
but praise God, despite the looming MBBS and residency apps, yr 5 has still been a pretty good yr!
By some estimates, Americans are collectively more than 5 billion lbs. overweight.
" The Science of Appetite" on Time magazine
http://www.time.com/time/specials/2007/0,2
if i can publish a research article on just the topic of appetite, that can revolutionise millions of diet plans. maybe publish some new "Celeste's diet" which allows you to eat just about anything you want, and still lose kgs in a week. i think i might win nobel prize for saving on healthcare costs all over the world.
chinese new yr is always a big test to my constant new yr resolution.
and this yr i barely made the mark, oh wells yes i gained an additional kg over the past 4 days. but hey i actually walked downstairs to buy green tea when my ahma's place only had coke and f & n soft drinks!
i dont think exercise is that difficult. in fact, ive managed to squeeze in wkly swimming, running and hiphopping in the past few wks. but somehow, the diet part is just so hard to fathom. ive consulted almost everyone whom i knew who lost significant weight. and i always find that same streak i lack in them- discipline. which reminds me, is another whole big resolution by itself. since the only constant i find in my life is procrastination :p
low gi food, more veg and fruits, no snacking, no sweet drinks, eat slower, satisfy desert craving with fruits, small regular meals.
how many of these can you actually make and keep if you honestly just adore beef chili cheese fries? maybe it has to start with the rewiring of some neural circuits/pathways. haha!
gong xi fa cai everyone!
" The Science of Appetite" on Time magazine
http://www.time.com/time/specials/2007/0,2
if i can publish a research article on just the topic of appetite, that can revolutionise millions of diet plans. maybe publish some new "Celeste's diet" which allows you to eat just about anything you want, and still lose kgs in a week. i think i might win nobel prize for saving on healthcare costs all over the world.
chinese new yr is always a big test to my constant new yr resolution.
and this yr i barely made the mark, oh wells yes i gained an additional kg over the past 4 days. but hey i actually walked downstairs to buy green tea when my ahma's place only had coke and f & n soft drinks!
i dont think exercise is that difficult. in fact, ive managed to squeeze in wkly swimming, running and hiphopping in the past few wks. but somehow, the diet part is just so hard to fathom. ive consulted almost everyone whom i knew who lost significant weight. and i always find that same streak i lack in them- discipline. which reminds me, is another whole big resolution by itself. since the only constant i find in my life is procrastination :p
low gi food, more veg and fruits, no snacking, no sweet drinks, eat slower, satisfy desert craving with fruits, small regular meals.
how many of these can you actually make and keep if you honestly just adore beef chili cheese fries? maybe it has to start with the rewiring of some neural circuits/pathways. haha!
gong xi fa cai everyone!
- Mood:
confused
honestly, i cant find suitable chinese new yr clothes despite combing:
1. ion
2. 313
3. bugis junction
4. iluma
5. junction 8
and i need to rant. it seems like if you're not a blogshop clothes fan- ur left with brands like zara/mango/dorothy perkins. and honestly im not that keen on spending $70 on a top.
haha no insult to blogshop fans. but there's really this blogshop look tt's everywhere. and if you need a dress, you can't exceed 1.6m in height, otherwise the dress would be obscenely short. then tts that floaty dress look with an elastic belt. followed by the high waisted skirt with a fluffy/plain top.
ok maybe 5 shopping centres isnt that good a sample size. but hey! what happened to the days of "i want to buy these so badly but have no money". its either the selection is less, or oops, im really growing old. one day ill end up shopping in FIMI at OG or robinsons or john little. horrors of horrors.
just a bimbo ranting entrY!
1. ion
2. 313
3. bugis junction
4. iluma
5. junction 8
and i need to rant. it seems like if you're not a blogshop clothes fan- ur left with brands like zara/mango/dorothy perkins. and honestly im not that keen on spending $70 on a top.
haha no insult to blogshop fans. but there's really this blogshop look tt's everywhere. and if you need a dress, you can't exceed 1.6m in height, otherwise the dress would be obscenely short. then tts that floaty dress look with an elastic belt. followed by the high waisted skirt with a fluffy/plain top.
ok maybe 5 shopping centres isnt that good a sample size. but hey! what happened to the days of "i want to buy these so badly but have no money". its either the selection is less, or oops, im really growing old. one day ill end up shopping in FIMI at OG or robinsons or john little. horrors of horrors.
just a bimbo ranting entrY!
yes i ought to be typing a new yr reflection kind of entry. but since time is so precious and ive been running ard this festive season. lets just focus on the most important task of the new year:
adapted from foreign dogs
"choledocholithiasis is the presence of stones in the biliary tree. cholelithisasis is the presence of gall stones. cholestasis is the hepatocellular dysufunction due to extra or intrehepatic biliary obstruction. cholecystitis is the inflammation of the gall bladder. cholangitis is the bacterial infection of the bile ducts.
and therefore
choledocholiithiasis and cholelithiasis cause cholestaiss. cholecystitis cause cholangitis. choledocholitihiasis and cholelithiasis also cause cholangitis"
happy colicky 2011!
and so its been one year, hx.
so much has happened in this one year, i guess christmas for the 2nd time comes with a tinge of sadness. its been a year of missing your presence, in school, in cell and in church. i believe you're really happy with Daddy, probably a better christmas than any of us here would have :)
somehow, doing pathology posting scares me, and i dont want to go into the mortuary. despite all the talk about having a once in a lifetime chance to touch a corpse, to touch fresh organs, to experience the pungent smell. i remember how i stood watching the incinerator, muffling myself. the fear of that memory keeps me away. death, however close to a release from pain and suffering, stings for a long time.
and so i wonder if you've been eavesdropping on my prayers to Daddy. if He'd allow you, you definitely would. this year's been a tough one, but praise God for it has taught me alot. and everytime the going got hard, i'd remember to push on the way you did. i guess you gave me enough reason to quit whining abt my life and fight for the important things in life.
and once again, its candlelight services tmrw:)
i just miss you so much dear.
it's the much coveted after holidays!
so much defragmentation to do. bsf seminar on quiet time yesterday reminded me of how much i've neglected the most important area in my life. so much books to read. yes my english is not lousy, the term used is "much". i owe tons of people unread books and unwatched movie dvds. so if you're reading this and you're one of my loansharks, please scream at me to return them to you :p
on an "eat pray sleep" journey to indonesia in a few hours. hope i will be convicted of this decision ive finally found courage to make.
p.s. eat pray love is an awesome movie contrary to popular beliefs!
so much defragmentation to do. bsf seminar on quiet time yesterday reminded me of how much i've neglected the most important area in my life. so much books to read. yes my english is not lousy, the term used is "much". i owe tons of people unread books and unwatched movie dvds. so if you're reading this and you're one of my loansharks, please scream at me to return them to you :p
on an "eat pray sleep" journey to indonesia in a few hours. hope i will be convicted of this decision ive finally found courage to make.
p.s. eat pray love is an awesome movie contrary to popular beliefs!
I need You to hold my hand
and whisper into my ears
that things will be the same yesterday, today and tomorrow
that I will have grace sufficient above my needs
that each day in the wards ill find a new reason to fight
that each patient i see ill be able to bring a smile to his/her face
the recent spate of bad news got me into thinking, and evaluating on many things. maybe when my thoughts are more coherent, ill type them in.
and whisper into my ears
that things will be the same yesterday, today and tomorrow
that I will have grace sufficient above my needs
that each day in the wards ill find a new reason to fight
that each patient i see ill be able to bring a smile to his/her face
the recent spate of bad news got me into thinking, and evaluating on many things. maybe when my thoughts are more coherent, ill type them in.
before i begin, i must say i have never had the ability to blog long posts. even if i am whining or complaining about something, my thoughts are chopped up once i begin typing away.
since paeds started, ive realised ive forgotten something all the way from gen med.
nope, its not my murmurs or differentials for clubbing. neither is it the myriad of names and syndromes (tay sach, pompe, arnold chiari, allagile, dandy walker, charcot marie tooth, ebstein anomaly) ok i dont even remember what half of them are right now.
and that is the conscience and consientiousness towards patients. perhaps seeing everyone else doing it makes me forget how uncomfortable i used to be with following suit. be it being the 8th person to auscultate a patient, or to clerk an overtired mother who just wants her son to have a good rest. and recently,ive been thinking about the idea of describing dysmorphism. yes its as good as saying a patient with a distended abdomen, visible abdominal veins and ascites has chronic liver disease. but somehow, pointing out a person's hypertelorism (wide distance bet eyes), flat nasal bridge, various head shapes (brachy/microcephaly) ..etc makes me feel uneasy. if God made each and every individual special, who then are we to classify children's faces as a xx/yy facies? how would a mum feel if her kid was referred to as "the down's kid"? how about attending ward rounds and tutorials in an immunocompromised ward when ur unwell? ive assumed a mask would do wonders and continued work despite being sick before.
just things i want to remind myself of. that im but a medical student. there's already little i can do to a patient. damage control is the least we ought to achieve,
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tea,dinner and supper today were great :) and so were my 2 wonderful tuition kids. claire, who's my 10th tuition kid (yes i counted! im proud of teaching the same thing 10 times) said "wow you covered a month worth of syllabus in 1.5 hr!"
im looking forward to the end of o levels when frequency of tuitions can be cut down. but then again, ive a problem with stopping tuitions. because i actually miss my students, and wonder how they're doing in life even after 2 years. which reminds me: im still looking for my primary school tuition teacher, who taught me what confidence meant and brought me to Christ! ive been trying for quite a while on facebook to no avail. any other ideas for searching?
yes i've proven a point. i can be quite a nag if i want to :p
since paeds started, ive realised ive forgotten something all the way from gen med.
nope, its not my murmurs or differentials for clubbing. neither is it the myriad of names and syndromes (tay sach, pompe, arnold chiari, allagile, dandy walker, charcot marie tooth, ebstein anomaly) ok i dont even remember what half of them are right now.
and that is the conscience and consientiousness towards patients. perhaps seeing everyone else doing it makes me forget how uncomfortable i used to be with following suit. be it being the 8th person to auscultate a patient, or to clerk an overtired mother who just wants her son to have a good rest. and recently,ive been thinking about the idea of describing dysmorphism. yes its as good as saying a patient with a distended abdomen, visible abdominal veins and ascites has chronic liver disease. but somehow, pointing out a person's hypertelorism (wide distance bet eyes), flat nasal bridge, various head shapes (brachy/microcephaly) ..etc makes me feel uneasy. if God made each and every individual special, who then are we to classify children's faces as a xx/yy facies? how would a mum feel if her kid was referred to as "the down's kid"? how about attending ward rounds and tutorials in an immunocompromised ward when ur unwell? ive assumed a mask would do wonders and continued work despite being sick before.
just things i want to remind myself of. that im but a medical student. there's already little i can do to a patient. damage control is the least we ought to achieve,
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tea,dinner and supper today were great :) and so were my 2 wonderful tuition kids. claire, who's my 10th tuition kid (yes i counted! im proud of teaching the same thing 10 times) said "wow you covered a month worth of syllabus in 1.5 hr!"
im looking forward to the end of o levels when frequency of tuitions can be cut down. but then again, ive a problem with stopping tuitions. because i actually miss my students, and wonder how they're doing in life even after 2 years. which reminds me: im still looking for my primary school tuition teacher, who taught me what confidence meant and brought me to Christ! ive been trying for quite a while on facebook to no avail. any other ideas for searching?
yes i've proven a point. i can be quite a nag if i want to :p
